4 posts tagged “kathleen”
I wish I could break down or enter myself in a hospital. I know I'm mentally ill not at a serious extent but I'd like to at least have my suspicions confuted.
I feel better or at least I feel better, I think there's always some part of me that will be at conflict with itself but don't we all have a bit of that? ...... Okay I acknowledge I'm probably a crazy person XP
I haven't blogged the last two days because the Avatar Marathon Sleepover hasn't permitted me the time to blog to the quality nor quantity I wished so I held it off until after work today. One day I picked up Kathleen from after work and with the way our friendship proceeds usually the invitation of each others company are extended. So that day (the same day I went with my brother to Parramatta) I invited her to sleepover so we could watch the Avatar 1st, 2nd and whatever of the 3rd we could fit :) She politely refused because she had work the next day so instead we made plans for her to sleepover the day after. :D
Okay I don't remember much : ) But yesterday I remember waking up at say.. 11ish? And I remember catching a train without a valid ticket that was probably the most squeamish position I had ever put myself in. You see I had gotten myself all ready remembered everything, but the money. Luckily I got out of it :D I had a bajillion old tickets in my bag so I slipped one of them in and I acted suprised it didn't allow me access to the greener side of the bridge so I just pushed my way through. Lmao :) Breaking the law, look out for your juvenile vagabond Edwina now. Available where all ignoble characters are shipped.
I went immediately to Parramatta Library. That day I planned to finish my Tempest Summaries and read a bit of Brave New World. After half an hour of painful summarising I convinced myself I was hungry and I went to buy myself some food. But wait, you hesitate, didn't I just tell you I forgot my money at home. Yes I did, but what I didn't forget was the gift card my aunt gave me for Christmas which still had $16 left over, much more than sufficient for a weight-conscious 16 y.o no? :O
I arrived at Coles feeling an inexplicable sense of empowerment. Purchasing power in a card, wow :) The pride rush in the veins was unbelievable. I strolled around Coles' aisles leisurely assuring myself that The Tempest would just have to wait patiently whilst I satisfied the hungry growling monstrosity dwelling in my body. My eye was first caught on a bottle of water, water? I need water I never ever get enough so I wanted to do myself a favour, instead of picking it out of the cooler first I decided I'll pick it up later so it'll stay colder longer, lmao. I then went to pick up the snack I would chow on and I settled on a small packet of Smiths chips. So much for weight-conscious, hey! Anything to deceive your better judgement right? :p Okay so I had all the food I needed but I felt dissatisfied I still had money left over and if I left it for next time I wouldnt be as excited since I would only have like 10 somehting dollars. So I strolled along the cosmetics and personal hygiene aisle as I've always had a unresolved strife with not being allowed to buy anything from that aisle. So I strolled for a while, and I came upon deodorant. Okay at this point in time I was really excited about the whole idea of convenience so I searched, and I found. I found these tiny little cans of deodorant and I got really excited about carrying ti around everywhere with me. However I stopped, I realised that I haven't had the need of deodorant for three years, so why would I need it now? So on with the search I then found some cleansing wipes, I always wanted a packet of these to keep in handy so I added it to my now mountain of a pile, yes I am a disrespectful sod for not making use of the baskets provided, so what? Anyways following that it wasn't that hard, I wasnt into makeup so that left me with first aid, and that meant BANDAIDS :D Yay. I was excited that I'd have something resourceful to keep in my bag, yes Amy's words about my maternal streak really struck me, shut up :D Of course I couldve gotten myself some "Hard Rider" condoms, but I don't want to buy things that will go out of date due to obselete rendering :O I went to the counter and handed my card, I warned the nice lady I might not have enough and she gave me a "You're not serious" kind of look, I mean come on :P Anyways, turns out after my little spree I officially have get this, FORTY-FOUR CENTS on my gift card :D What a champion.
I want kids ! :) Am I too young to say that? No way Tegan wants like 26 kids :O I'd love to have something that I created myself lmfao. I mean I'm not a hands on person why not have a kid :D I love kids :) Well most kids, kids who have hissy fits are not in my good books. Not that my kids will have hissy fits -slides whip into an obscure place in backpocket-.
Okay so then I returned to the library whislt feeling really .. well complete :) Self sufficient, not that buying goods from a gift card is really an example of such sufficiency but still ! :D
I returned and realised I couldnt finish the whole book, it would have to wait. So that only left reading, I had a choice between Lolita, the fire of Humbert Humbert's loins or Brave New World the creepily drawing book. And I chose Brave New World, I mean for Ford's sake I own Lolita I have plenty of time to relish every moment. Whilst Brave New World is more pressing, I have to get this SHIT ! :O So I went to Borders where it was MUCH more commodious. I saw Dunja. In fact I stood right in front of her, right up to her shoulder I was. AND SHE DIDNT NOTICE ME :O I stalke dher for a good 10 minutes but her Edwina radar was just not picking anything up. What on Earth? This is Edwina, the most obstructive and intrusive girl on Parramatta, what? :O Weird. So I sat and read for 57 minutes, 57 because I left 3 minutes to travel downstairs and to pick Kathleen up.
The fun you have with no money :)
I explained to Kat about my no money situation and she decided we would be catching the bus her shout :D Pretty exciting, not. The wait was kind of lame, and there weren't any good looking asians. When are there good looking asians? Why is the distribution of good looking asians selfish enough to drain the decent Asian pool of the Pendle Hill/Toongabbie/Wentworthville/Blacktown/Whatever region DRY !? :(
I need a boyfriend. Lmao, do I sound a little bit desperate. I figured if I did he'd be this constant figure in life, and then I'd be forced to set a certain standard of discipline and constancy in my life, for his sake. Bargain both sides right? :p
Lmao, yes despite that highly persuasive speech just then you probably still think I, a meretricious harlot. No matter, I don't care what you think ;)
We got home and got right to it, well I made a Neopets account first but meh. :D The AVATAAR.
Zutara FTP man. I am strongly against Kaang. It's wrong, protagonists don't date chicks 12984093248 years their senior, especially not monkish ones :( I mean look at the crazy mutual understanding going on in Zutara :( Sigh my only source of Zutara pleasure right now is fanart. Meh. :D I know it's going to happen, so it's just a matter of being patient right? :D
I popped popcorn and the meteorite clump of burnt unknown matter (okay popcorn) made a reappearance in my popcorn bag. Okay for those who just arrived, last time I had a Ripleys study day and I also popped popcorn and this foul-stenched of a burnt clump appeared :( Well didnt stop the people on both occassions eating around it lmfao.
OMG KUTARA ! :( NO NO NO NONONONO :'( Maybe I'll get myself terminally ill and request the people to make it ZUTARA ! :D
Hurrah.
Okay we watched it until 5am in the morning. Uh did I feel disgusting, I laid there right throgh the transition of light. It was uber dark and it became light in a flash I witnessed it all and I realised I hadnt fallen asleep. Pretty bad. Oh it was Kat and I on the one single bed lmao. :D She kicks, and nudges and steals the blankie T T" Blanket hog, but shes still an awesome sleepover guest :)
So that night we finished both seasons and today we watched all that we could of the Avatar 3rd Season :D We had McDonalds for breakfast. Man the arselicks didnt give mum sauce and Kathleen and I had to eat it barenuggeted. That is just sick, if there's one thing I can not tolerate it's sauceless nuggets. Watched some mediocre tennis and we got back to the Avatar.
ZUTARA ! :D
Sweet dreams. Mono tomorrow, Lmao let's see how it goes?
I woke up at 12 in the afternoon as usual to my 3am sleeping habits. Nine hours would seem healthy no?
Like promised I got myself ready to go pick Kathleen up after work only to hear the younger brother next door fiddling with nothing. Mother bear has cut the circuits in his room so no television or computer for him. The poor fool lmao. I felt slightly bad for the fellow so I invited him to come to Parramatta with me. As soon as lunch was over, I would've included lunch in the itinerary but it was already provided.
To some degree I think it's important not to severe the links between younger siblings. This is especially important for people like me where a generation gap acts as an obstacle between the process of understanding younger siblings. Take example my conversation with my brother at one point:
Edward : Did I tell you about the time I wrestled Franklin?
Edwina : No...
Edward : Well do you want to hear about it?
Edwina : No...
Can I be blamed that the only wrestling I'm interested in is professional wrestling? So I walked with my brother today and I learnt alot. Nothing direct but more about him and his ideology. I didn't so much as approach it ebulliently like Dr. Somebody from Pygmalion and his little dialect guinea pig. (What I'm expected to remember names now? :O)
Today Edward and I went to EB Games because the boy wanted to find a game. If I remember correctly it was LOTR: Rise of the Witch King. EB failed us so we headed off to Toys 'R' Us, realising that if EB didn't have it the likelihood of Toys R' Us having it was far less. Afterwards we headed off to Borders with an hour to spare before Kathleen finished work. I read the illustrated version of the Great Gatsby and Edward read a Family Guy comic. The comic I was reading was interesting, it allowed me to further appreciate the novel itself because the attributes of the characters were even more so highlighted by drawings. I'm glad that Edward is reading a Family Guy comic as opposed to I don't know a South Park comic but I'm also slightly worried. Isn't it all a bit advanced for Edward? Can he really appreciate the humour behind Family Guy without getting too influenced by the blatant crudeness of it all. It's like Summer Heights High all the kids watch it just like their teenager older siblings do. However, we laugh at different things. I laugh at how closely Chris Liley exploits contemporary human nature whilst Edward laughs because of Jonah's ubiquitous phallic desicration (can't spell). Isn't it all a bit much for his impressionable mind? I tried explaining parody to him today and I had to refer to Rove McManus, doesn't that kind of say something. That the only route in which younger generations develop a sense of humour is a bit narrow? They all have to experience some rather tasteless attempts at entertainment before they get to the good stuff?
After Borders we realised we were hungry again so with the money Mum left us and the left over wage I had I bought us sushi. Edward had a California roll which I can't understand since that's FISH OVARIES that his consuming whilst I bought a Chicken Katsu roll. Tasty enough. Amy brought up my maternal habits again on the 2nd of Jan lmao and I realised I probably am. Edward made a mess as usual and I had napkins saved on from previous eating expeditions handy. We then had ice cream where we witnessed a bout between opponents of ignorance. A man was blowing his whistle off at this woman for displaying her scorn at him for leaning over and taking a straw from the lid of the straw dispenser instead of the bottom like the rest of society does. It's rude to impose someone's personal bubble like he did but it's also rude to be questioning someone's motives. If he wasn't comfortable with the standards of a straw that has been aired about for a couple of hours then let him finger his grubby hands with the mass of straws. Then again I practically contradicted his actions seeing as putting his hands in from the top is practically allowing later patrons who use the straws to be confronted with the 'dirty straw' issue just as he had been. Bravo mankind.
McDonalds do receive alot of interesting strangers according to the manager (from whom I so happened to overhear from) and from my first hand witnessing, an Asian man makes his daily rounds to sing to all the stores in the food court. Wow. I admire our acceptance of this behaviour but it's only a majority which means there's always a minority standing there with their condescending, disgusted looks on their face as they are faced with a situation that deviates from the norm to them.
I'm talking about nothing so let's stop. Afterwards met up with Kathleen. A change in behaviour was noted in Edward with Kathleen around, he was alot more ostentatious, scrap that he was alot more EMBARASSING. The peculiar wheel in his behaviour was suddenly rolling alot more than usual.
I remember a talk with Edward where he asked me if our parents were getting divorced. I was stunned as that was the first I ever heard of it. So I tried probing him for more information but he mumbled on about nothing and I realised that the incoherence of everything he said was probably my fault. Our lack of daily communication has resulted in a decline in understanding and moreover trust. I haven't heard about divorces since, I don't think my parents are divorcing. They're far too old-school and conventional to file a divorce. They would just work around it and stand each other for the rest of their lives. However everyday I'm confronted with the fact that divorce really exists that it isn't sheerly limited to havoc-wreaked families with rapist fathers, junkie children and a hooker mother. 'Normal' families, families I know of are segregated by divorce and wow, their families aren't all that different to mine. We exist in the same.. ring.
Walked home and afterwards we opened myself a new neopets account and we watched a couple episodes of Avatar. I finished 107 hurrah ! :p
Lmao thanks for the eighth dayer Kathleen. Her hair is gangster-long now lmao. Look it's the last air-bender Fang and his slut of a girlfriend Edtara ! :p Ah. Ooh earth-bending leema !
Okay pressing issue of Japanese homework which I really should do :( And Vivienne I'm really sorry I forgot to sign up for TSFX, at least I wont be suprised that you got 99.99999 UAI for the HSC not that I wouldve been suprised if you didnt go TSFX anyways. :) Thanks for telling me about it though, it means alot.
Auf Wiedersehn.
That inkling of a cold feeling. I also have pins and needles repeatedly pricking my foot, painful.
My son of a mother brother has godparents. Those godparents bought him a freaking PSP. I want a PSP but do I get one, no, I don't even have godparents. Stupid buddha (note this is the name ive adopted for hte sibling due to his uncanny physical resemblance to him), he always gets the cleaner end of the stick. Oh Edward gets to go to Brisbane, oh Edward gets to go ski-ing, oh ho Edward gets to learn karate. Geez I feel like old school chinese values have been impoesd on this household with all that patriarchal bullshit. You don't hear the word matriarchal all too often =/ Women need to take action against this inequality and mistreatment. Yah ! Words that currently run through my mind are
castration, revenge, vengeance, outrage
Geez louise Buddha cried today because I managed to convince him I got more noodles for dinner than he did so then my papa had to scoop out half my bowl of noodles and put it in his, spoilt son of a mother. He has no sense of self-reliance whatsoever, what about when my parents are dead (I can see that cringe)?! Who's going to pat him on the back then, I sure as heck won't, I'll be busy earning multi-million bucks.
I WANT A PSP. FREAKING HECK. I've decided that until they'll buy me something that is usually unattainable, I will not be an obedient child for those two (parents i.e.).
fuck. Okay all my anger that I've been attempting to exert was released thanks to that 4-lettered word, fantastic.
I have power walking tomorrow.. and for the first time ever I'm doing it all by myself oneself, cool hey? :) It'll be beneficial to my muse. I'm breeding myeslf to the individual I need to be when I grow up, I can't always rely on someone. I'll have my iPod&cons that'll be enough. Wait will I be wearing Cons? Who knows.. I still want double tongues >>" I wanted them ever since they came out.
I miss Muskaa.
Blasphemousdamnit. I have mono tomorrow & I havent washed my hair. Double shot down ! BANG BANG. LGLG
GG ! Okay Edwina..
KATHLEEN IM OVER MYSPACE :) ILL AVENGE MY HEART AND WHEN I TROD ALL OVER THAT ASSHOLES HEAD TIL ITS A BLEEDING MOSHPIT ILL BE GOOD. :)
My feet are still pinning and needling. >>
Crap Japanese homework. Jyane ! I'm going to shower sorekara attend to my japanese homework.
To my beloved one of two sisters, Kathleen.
Thank you. I don't know but thank you is all that really seems fitting in this situation. If I was you, I would wish that Edwina would get over herself and him, maybe you already do but that's okay thanks for not saying it aloud. I don't know the support you provide the kind of indifferent yet supportive care is really nice.
Tokorode, enough of my recessive love life.
At the beginning of today, that being midnight I woke up from a deep nap. You see the day before at 11:40pm I was studying one of my four pages worth of vocabulary pages on my hardcore (literally) bed. I woke up at 12am the next day realising i somehow managed to take myself a nap. So from 12-3:40am i studied. Great.
I studied on the bus, I studied at school, I studied during roll call, I studied during scripture and I studied during recess. Yet I still fail to do my very best in the darned test. That's deplorable.
The maths test I'm proud to say without any modesty, was owned. Whilst completing the test I realised I couldnt factorise one of the lines and I asked miss if i was doing it wrong or if there was an error and she completely misinterprets it and says she can't tell me. Ten minutes later with a conversation with the teacher next door we find out the exact question I was complaining about is un'do'able. Ha. Ownage.
God I have got to stop saying ownage, own, pwnage, pwn. I've also gotta stop with the blasphemy. Im just vain.
I love you Kathleen! =D
It's kind of disheartening that if still-dont-know who sees myspace everyday couldnt make it with him then the odds against myself are .. haha.
The song that is perpetually reiterated in my head is Low Happenings by he Howling Bells. It I don't know, it's alluring. It contains betrayal we're all to familiar with in a standard 3-4 minute song. I love it.
These really are the hard years aren't they? Everybody has their own little problems with their head 5cm away from being smashed against the wall from the consistent stress of assessments, romance and god bless them , our parents.
My friend Muskaa Andel, I must say is the coolest person in the world. Then she left at the end of year 8 because my school wasnt high enough calibre for her. That cut.
Recently i initiated contact with the fabulous Ms Andel it's nice to know that the wallpaper friendship can still ensure us a decent conversation. Ha.
I'm currently reading Four Play another badly written contemporary romance novel. I feel obligated to read it because I borrowed it and now it's like a month overdue. Ironically I had another overdue book in my library books pile yet I completely dismissed it because I found the entire British-American war/Romance thing boring.
Anyways after maths I remember going to the library to practice my oral assessment. Dear god (BLASPHEMOUS) it's alarming to notice I am increasingly found more and more in the school library. People in my group automatically assume that in my absence I will be at the library it's quite weird. Keredomo, I don't mind. If it gets me a 95+ UAI im happy to live in the library.
The only real highlight of the day worth mentioning was the excavation kits we got during Ancient History. They are the bomb. They smell fabulous too. I don't know something about scraping around in clay with a paddle pop stick is really instigating in a non committed way.
I feel kind detached at the moment. I think about males, I think about one and then immediately think about the other. Now i've cut down the masculine lotto pool to two.
The corny friends are forever things are really true huh?
Much Love my starpowder puffs. Eat well.
