1 post tagged “emo”
Well yesterday I was at the library studying for my imminent fail in my mass Japanese assessment today. I was joined by Geoffrey the local emo.
Okay so here is when it starts getting a little ambiguous, how emo do you have to be to be classified as an emo? Would you have to bear your slit wrists in pride whilst slyly showing that your nails have miraculously manifested into some sort of black colour? Would your flipping hair cuts have to look like every other default emo - sidefringe cut?
Well back on track. He joins me on my table that was currently only occupied by me. He takes a seat and suddenly i feel extremely invaded. I don't know whether or not my library experiences were solitary or accompanied had never been much importance to me until now. So I nonchalantly continue on studying my four pages worth of foreign japanese words but i stop. I look up and I see Geoffrey being completely non-productive. I don't know, maybe it's an asian instinct but I can't work if someone's sitting there doing nothing. So I forced him to do his english homework. =) I know I'm so *cough_ altruistic. Somehow Geoffrey's managed to acquire the knowledge of my current love dilemma and he knew that under the circumstances we were in I would be confronted with the problem and yes. <-- Lol anti-climax. Basically what I'm attempting to convey is that he was aware that I had problems.
I'm doing my work when out of the blue the question "How would you react if I died?" materializes, Geoffrey has obviously managed to stumble into some sort of self-hate trap. Okay here's where I might get flamed. I honestly couldn't care at that moment, too many problems of my own had built up on my plate and I could not deal with taking share of his plate too. So i told him, "I can't care at the moment," and then he completely misinterprets it as me not caring if he dies. Gosh, like it's all so stereotypical but me being the cynical female dog that i was let it go. I couldn't deal with it and nurture the boy's self-inflicted wounds.
Maybe then I really brought it upon myself when I questioned Geoffrey's decision on whether to stay at school or not. I told him his future would certainly be unclear if he decided to quit and that if he didnt make it as a rockstar (which was an incredibly high chance) then he'd basically have no future. So am i a realist or a cynic? Maybe both.
The boy couldve done something nice with himself because no one is really a punkass kid. It's just a trend that no one realises is uncool. Everyone eventually moves on from it.
I'm going to rant about nothing relatively conceptually new. What if you liked a person you're not supposed to like? Like a forbidden like? Like like like. Maybe it's this mind manipulation of mine. I can convince myself what is right or wrong if i wanted to. I can also manifest reasons as upon the justification of why I do certain things. So right now I'm dealing with three people I could potentially like, one i know I already do but the probability of whether or not anything will come out of thta is pretty iffy. The other two, I dont know.
Okay, all i really wanted to discuss today was Geoffrey and his unnecessary behaviour. He goes on about how he life sucks and bla and I tell him that he should be happy his not a third world child. Subsequently he then attempts to retort that third world children should be happy with what they got which is a disgusting to say and I told him shouldnt that mean he should be happy with what he got. Sigh.
I'm going to continue studying. Oyasuminasai my precioussss.
