3 posts tagged “edward”
I woke up at 12 in the afternoon as usual to my 3am sleeping habits. Nine hours would seem healthy no?
Like promised I got myself ready to go pick Kathleen up after work only to hear the younger brother next door fiddling with nothing. Mother bear has cut the circuits in his room so no television or computer for him. The poor fool lmao. I felt slightly bad for the fellow so I invited him to come to Parramatta with me. As soon as lunch was over, I would've included lunch in the itinerary but it was already provided.
To some degree I think it's important not to severe the links between younger siblings. This is especially important for people like me where a generation gap acts as an obstacle between the process of understanding younger siblings. Take example my conversation with my brother at one point:
Edward : Did I tell you about the time I wrestled Franklin?
Edwina : No...
Edward : Well do you want to hear about it?
Edwina : No...
Can I be blamed that the only wrestling I'm interested in is professional wrestling? So I walked with my brother today and I learnt alot. Nothing direct but more about him and his ideology. I didn't so much as approach it ebulliently like Dr. Somebody from Pygmalion and his little dialect guinea pig. (What I'm expected to remember names now? :O)
Today Edward and I went to EB Games because the boy wanted to find a game. If I remember correctly it was LOTR: Rise of the Witch King. EB failed us so we headed off to Toys 'R' Us, realising that if EB didn't have it the likelihood of Toys R' Us having it was far less. Afterwards we headed off to Borders with an hour to spare before Kathleen finished work. I read the illustrated version of the Great Gatsby and Edward read a Family Guy comic. The comic I was reading was interesting, it allowed me to further appreciate the novel itself because the attributes of the characters were even more so highlighted by drawings. I'm glad that Edward is reading a Family Guy comic as opposed to I don't know a South Park comic but I'm also slightly worried. Isn't it all a bit advanced for Edward? Can he really appreciate the humour behind Family Guy without getting too influenced by the blatant crudeness of it all. It's like Summer Heights High all the kids watch it just like their teenager older siblings do. However, we laugh at different things. I laugh at how closely Chris Liley exploits contemporary human nature whilst Edward laughs because of Jonah's ubiquitous phallic desicration (can't spell). Isn't it all a bit much for his impressionable mind? I tried explaining parody to him today and I had to refer to Rove McManus, doesn't that kind of say something. That the only route in which younger generations develop a sense of humour is a bit narrow? They all have to experience some rather tasteless attempts at entertainment before they get to the good stuff?
After Borders we realised we were hungry again so with the money Mum left us and the left over wage I had I bought us sushi. Edward had a California roll which I can't understand since that's FISH OVARIES that his consuming whilst I bought a Chicken Katsu roll. Tasty enough. Amy brought up my maternal habits again on the 2nd of Jan lmao and I realised I probably am. Edward made a mess as usual and I had napkins saved on from previous eating expeditions handy. We then had ice cream where we witnessed a bout between opponents of ignorance. A man was blowing his whistle off at this woman for displaying her scorn at him for leaning over and taking a straw from the lid of the straw dispenser instead of the bottom like the rest of society does. It's rude to impose someone's personal bubble like he did but it's also rude to be questioning someone's motives. If he wasn't comfortable with the standards of a straw that has been aired about for a couple of hours then let him finger his grubby hands with the mass of straws. Then again I practically contradicted his actions seeing as putting his hands in from the top is practically allowing later patrons who use the straws to be confronted with the 'dirty straw' issue just as he had been. Bravo mankind.
McDonalds do receive alot of interesting strangers according to the manager (from whom I so happened to overhear from) and from my first hand witnessing, an Asian man makes his daily rounds to sing to all the stores in the food court. Wow. I admire our acceptance of this behaviour but it's only a majority which means there's always a minority standing there with their condescending, disgusted looks on their face as they are faced with a situation that deviates from the norm to them.
I'm talking about nothing so let's stop. Afterwards met up with Kathleen. A change in behaviour was noted in Edward with Kathleen around, he was alot more ostentatious, scrap that he was alot more EMBARASSING. The peculiar wheel in his behaviour was suddenly rolling alot more than usual.
I remember a talk with Edward where he asked me if our parents were getting divorced. I was stunned as that was the first I ever heard of it. So I tried probing him for more information but he mumbled on about nothing and I realised that the incoherence of everything he said was probably my fault. Our lack of daily communication has resulted in a decline in understanding and moreover trust. I haven't heard about divorces since, I don't think my parents are divorcing. They're far too old-school and conventional to file a divorce. They would just work around it and stand each other for the rest of their lives. However everyday I'm confronted with the fact that divorce really exists that it isn't sheerly limited to havoc-wreaked families with rapist fathers, junkie children and a hooker mother. 'Normal' families, families I know of are segregated by divorce and wow, their families aren't all that different to mine. We exist in the same.. ring.
Walked home and afterwards we opened myself a new neopets account and we watched a couple episodes of Avatar. I finished 107 hurrah ! :p
Lmao thanks for the eighth dayer Kathleen. Her hair is gangster-long now lmao. Look it's the last air-bender Fang and his slut of a girlfriend Edtara ! :p Ah. Ooh earth-bending leema !
Okay pressing issue of Japanese homework which I really should do :( And Vivienne I'm really sorry I forgot to sign up for TSFX, at least I wont be suprised that you got 99.99999 UAI for the HSC not that I wouldve been suprised if you didnt go TSFX anyways. :) Thanks for telling me about it though, it means alot.
Auf Wiedersehn.
That inkling of a cold feeling. I also have pins and needles repeatedly pricking my foot, painful.
My son of a mother brother has godparents. Those godparents bought him a freaking PSP. I want a PSP but do I get one, no, I don't even have godparents. Stupid buddha (note this is the name ive adopted for hte sibling due to his uncanny physical resemblance to him), he always gets the cleaner end of the stick. Oh Edward gets to go to Brisbane, oh Edward gets to go ski-ing, oh ho Edward gets to learn karate. Geez I feel like old school chinese values have been impoesd on this household with all that patriarchal bullshit. You don't hear the word matriarchal all too often =/ Women need to take action against this inequality and mistreatment. Yah ! Words that currently run through my mind are
castration, revenge, vengeance, outrage
Geez louise Buddha cried today because I managed to convince him I got more noodles for dinner than he did so then my papa had to scoop out half my bowl of noodles and put it in his, spoilt son of a mother. He has no sense of self-reliance whatsoever, what about when my parents are dead (I can see that cringe)?! Who's going to pat him on the back then, I sure as heck won't, I'll be busy earning multi-million bucks.
I WANT A PSP. FREAKING HECK. I've decided that until they'll buy me something that is usually unattainable, I will not be an obedient child for those two (parents i.e.).
fuck. Okay all my anger that I've been attempting to exert was released thanks to that 4-lettered word, fantastic.
I have power walking tomorrow.. and for the first time ever I'm doing it all by myself oneself, cool hey? :) It'll be beneficial to my muse. I'm breeding myeslf to the individual I need to be when I grow up, I can't always rely on someone. I'll have my iPod&cons that'll be enough. Wait will I be wearing Cons? Who knows.. I still want double tongues >>" I wanted them ever since they came out.
I miss Muskaa.
Blasphemousdamnit. I have mono tomorrow & I havent washed my hair. Double shot down ! BANG BANG. LGLG
GG ! Okay Edwina..
KATHLEEN IM OVER MYSPACE :) ILL AVENGE MY HEART AND WHEN I TROD ALL OVER THAT ASSHOLES HEAD TIL ITS A BLEEDING MOSHPIT ILL BE GOOD. :)
My feet are still pinning and needling. >>
Crap Japanese homework. Jyane ! I'm going to shower sorekara attend to my japanese homework.
Sorry Einstein but I'm not even going to quote that. MOOHAHAHAHAHA. Anyways.
This one time I was at the library during recess prior the period I had Japanese that was held in the conference room in the library. Well anyway, the bell rang and Amy who was with me outside left to get more stuff out of her bag ready for the Japanese lesson. So I decided to stack all out things that got up to 50 cm in height so I could carry it all. I did all this where all the stuff on one side of the table whilst I was on the other. I leaned in and tried to grab it all and failed miserably. Ms Vine the local librarian noticed this and asked me why didn't I just move to the side where it was more convenient for me. I had a long think about this afterward and i realised it was all due to outside influences. The chinese takeaway shop. Whilst working under time restraints instead of moving over to the other side of the table to raech the meals at my convenience I lean in and pull it in. Strange how everything, even the tiniest thing has an effect. In this case it affects how I go about in doing things. Strange indeed.
This morning I woke up just past midday. At this point my mind was devoid of the usual morning bore and I was hyped and perky to go.
Hi, my name is asshole and I like being abstract and indirect about anything even slightly derogatory in terms of a person.
It's like yes it's probably a bad thing but how old are we all? It's like condemning us to the lives of convention before we've gotten the chance to wander off into the big bad woods, get raped by a wolf and learn the lesson ourselves. If anything all this lecturing and preaching is only a bigger incentive to act out and defy anybody.
I really feel that the one thing I need right now is freedom. I need people to stop caring, okay reword stop worrying. Stop frowning, stop the disdain, fucking stop it all. See the use of profanities is eye-catching, abrupt and hence this technique shows my sudden change in tone. English prep, excuse me.
It's all so contradictory, immaturity. Maturity isn't letting the hairball underneath the carpet accumulate to a mound. Maturity isn't doing jack shit (Ah ha Jack) about it .Maturity isn't blaming it on another when it obviously just that one person's fault. Maturity isn't evident at all with the way you're acting.You think you're so grown up, so goddamn virtuous.
I wonder why I don't give a fuck.
Anyways these days I've noticed I hardly talk to anyone online. Maybe I'm glad, maybe I'm anxious. I don't know I've just accepted it all as axiomatic, I don't mind. It's probably better this way too seeing as I wont see a majority of these people in my life after year 12.
Oh my, what a distraction. Anyways I had my leftover Peking Chicken for breakfast this morning whilst i oven baked my brothers mini meat pies. It's cool I had a choice of whether to have meat pies and I chose Peking Chicken. This demonstrates not only my improved healthy diet choices but also my asian loyalty. Ah ha.
Anyways, afterwards I played around with MSN for a while. Oh my god I have got to get my schoolwork act together.
Katrine and I decided to meet up at the library. Whilst walking to the station Katrine calls me and tells me that the library isn't open on public holidays. Great. So I told her it was too late for me and I told her I'd meet her at mono instead. However, as sweet as she was she told me she'd meet me at the library. Aw.
Trains are still as unreliable as ever. My memory had informed me that the next train would come at 1:46 but nooo.. I get to the station at 1:40 and find out the next train will only come at 2. Grumbles. What's a girl who earns five dollars a night supposed to do in a situation like that?
Oh well got the Homebush at 2:40. Pretty ineffecient I know.
Walked to Flemo with Katrine until she realised she didn't have any money but an ATM card so we decided to go to Strathfield so she could withdraw some money. We went to a Korean supermarket and bought many food. I bought seasoned seaweed paper. Ironic. I used to abhor seaweed paper. Now I can't get enough of the stuff.
Anyways after all that we went to tutor. Ah ha. 36/38 for a mono test, finally a decent mark I could boast of this year.
Well today my mum couldn't pick me up fromt he station so she sent the paedophile who lives in my backyard to pick me up. You know he's not an outright paedophile but he's got that eery nice grin and his balding and he looks at you extremely earnestly. It's repulsive. So when I heard about this I almost choked on my tongue. Anywho, I got into this guys car and I was already gnawing away at my arm with my fingers. He was supposed to drive me to the chinese takeaway shop and instead he gets us lost. I know it's already proceeding into a rape plot right? Anyways I sit in the car for 20 minute whilst his outside underneath a street sign as if standing underneath it will give him a sudden sense of direction. Finally he starts driving in the completely opposite direction. The funny thing about all this is Ive actually known the way all along. So my mum calls me and she talks to the guy to get him to take me home isntead. So i do the role of directions and point around until we get home but he doesnt stop! So I start worrying thinking he's actually going to go with the unconsensual intercourse thing. He then tells me in mandarin and thank god I have a rough idea of it all that he's going to take me to the takeaway shop. He asks me if I know the way and I make the universal sound of nngh which really means yes it's not a groan or anything. ;D So I point him and I finally ge there and have a loong whinge to my mother about how bad an idea it was to get HIM to drive me to the takeaway store. I had satay chicken and beef for dinner. Oishii dayo!
I want to have kids. I know it's probably a little young but I love kids. All the more reason that my true occupation should be a teacher but still. The pay is still awful, I know it's immoral to be working for the money but we live in a society where you can't function, exist without any sort of monetary backing. Maybe I'll be like a tutor teacher. God I want kids! Someone incredibly rich, handsome *so forth with the list etc_ let me have your kids! That's why I'm going to be an accountant by the way, money. At the chinese takeaway shop a man brought his son and he was sooo incredibly adorable ! He looks at me and does thsoe waves only little kids can get away with. I grin stupidly and wave back. See he was eating MAMEE noodles and I was eating crisp noodles so I point that out.
"Hey you're eating noodles" I swear if my child was being talked to by a teenager at the local chinese takeaway shop I'd be worried too. Anywho the kid nods and I tell him I'm eating noodles too. Oh gosh he was so adorable, he was wearing those shoes that don't ahve a hard sole and he was also wearing Bob the Builder. I mean no one likes Bob the Builder anymore not even those cool rad teenagers that like anything thats on ABC kids. =/
He points at the fishes and says "You've got fish" and i was like AHHH . I want kids man. VOX hear my plea, your most probably only 15.y.o blogger is begging you to bestow upon her a child!
Anyways my aunt who helps out at the shop drove my brother and I home. My aunt asked us if we wanted to sleepover and I politely rejected since I couldn't because I had to go on an EAT (<3) outing tomorrow but I left the opportunity still hanging for my brother. He declined saying our mother probably wouldn't let. BUT me being the cool older sister told him to go and that i'd deal with our witch of a mother. :)
Well I don't have anymore to blog about.
Teen self - hate moment #2 : I'm an ugly fat cow.
Much Love.
<edit> I just read some Voxers' blogs. I am immature but not in the way it would give the asshole some sort of satisfaction. Damn hedonist, no i kid the boy's abstinent for life as far as i know. Anyways, they all have something deep and meaningful to blog about and here i am blabbing away about my bout with an almost rape. Sigh. </edit>
