P.S I'm once again mid-way through this : D
Stakes and pitchforks! How dare she return after her unfaithful disappearance.
Haha, I'm sorry. I indulge my indolence like it's my first born. Haha I know I shouldn't because that consequently would reduce me to the stigmatic role as a teenage parent but still!
I come back today on Christmas. The heeheehooha. I've just been made aware by an averted gaze that it is in fact Boxing Day. Oh well recounts are excellente as well!
Okay we woke up at 7am much to my despair. Isn't Christmas supposed to be absolutely fantastic, fantastic does not entail 7am. Waking up groggy like a well-experienced alcoholic the next morning after three drinks too many, I brushed my teeth rather carelessly.
In the car I found out that we were in fact NOT going to the usual beaches i.e. either Bondi, Coogee or even Manly. Instead we were going to some unknown, distant beach down by Wollongong, well alot further.
The drive was painful we had two pitstops. Here's an extra tad we travelled in packs, 4 cars filled with Asians that must've been a sweet sight for the white supremacists.
Even though the beach was some insignificant coffee stain on a map, it had some pretty decent sand. Haha so decent I fell asleep with a book over my face like those bookish people on beaches. Well not like, I am a bookish person on a beach.
In my black sweater it started getting hot resulting in me tossing and turning now and again. Yes I did end up being half-cooked by 2pm.
We went to some rock poolish area where we discovered sea creatures like little crabs and pointy things. Haha, pointy things real literate Edwina. And a sea snail, well a sea slug. Dad pulled it so hard the shell came off and it became a sea slug. Haha Dad chucked it up and I leaped and yelped causing all the other toddler girls to follow suit. Noice :) It was pretty disgusting, it was all kinds of colours and the size of a clenched fist :(
We went back to a family friends' who accompanied for BBQ. Haha so odd , a house full of Asian having a BBQ. It was odd, I could've sworn the host was trying to coax me - a lazy Buddhist into Christianity. I kid you not, it was the house with those cutesy Christian trinkets around the place. And there was something really odd about what we were watching on tv. Either we watched cartoons or he'd put on something explicitly Christian related like some video that explained the dinosaurs' presence in Bible terms & exploiting the inefficiency of scientific dating methods, well just science itself. OOh and I thought we were going to watch a cartoon well turns out it was an animation about Joseph from the Bible, the miracle child. Holy guacamole. Haha we tried turning to Channel 7 to watch Ugly Betty in prep for Eli Stone but the host discreetly changed it back to cartoons and told us that if we had really wanted to watch it, we would've recorded it. We had like a Truth or Dare game , well only Dare and one of the dares was to recite something about Genesis in the Bible and I'm under the impression that that's really quite long.
Haha they had the most adorable girls. Well there were three but one was really really loud and obnoxious. The type you can tell being a leader that people follow but not happily lolol. She was so terrible. There was this gorgeous halfie haha and I witnessed fristhand the effects of the Bratz era. The three little tykes were taking a photo and they all broke into these poses that belonged on some girls backpack posed by girls with inflated lips . Haha and a second before it flashed the halfie peaced everyone. Wow. They're like four. Anywho I felt exceedingly old being the "older girl" of this particular outing. I swear to god the leader girl says "There's only three girls here!" and she sees me and says "Three cute girls!"
I got home exhausted.
Oh and I left my bag at the BBQ people's place. I won't be suprised if I get those colourful pamphlets people sometimes hand out about what a perfect world it would be if we were all on the Christian path. Haha, I like reading htem though. The idea where I can sit calmly whilst my 2 year old goes and pets a lion for a pamphlet illustration definitely piques my interest.
"Anthony says you look like Ugly Betty" said my brother.
Haha it got to me a little bit, as an insult or a compliment I'm not sure.
However even I should admit the resemblance is uncanny.
Lovelovelove Ed.
but most of all, we love Edwina.
Ah the Ancient/Ext Dinner :)
I realised that what I was going to wear was a little bit too skin-revealing to just walk down the streets in so I wore a coat. My lord did someone upstairs decide to punish me for my prudence, it was blazing hot.
So I met up with Nabs who inconveniently named my dress a negligee. Haha later on we found Kenny who's fringe was still straightened, noice. Apparently she's getting all this attention she's never had before, haha :)
So we made our way there. Met everyone. And found out that the next day we were going to the beach. LOL our outings are always so last-minute. I still want to go ice-skating - O - Before the results come out so I don't try to stab myself with the skates in suicidal angst.
Haha we made our way in, it was so rustic and pretty inside :)
The entrees were yummy we had garlic & herb pizzetta : D It was yummier than Toscani's :X Haha, I didn't want to risk anything with my meticulous tastebuds so I ordered a good ole' spag bo(w)l. Haha. It was yummy and Ms Hufton taught me what the spoon in the spag bol was for. LOL very cultured Ed.
Numerous conversations. Amy, Dunja, Melda, Tijana & I established a group where we meet once a month to make sure we catch up even with the distance imposing uni coming up in our lives.
How awesome Dunja will be there with me to do Arts if I go to Syd Uni with my double degree of Commerce & Arts :) Sweet I won't have to labour through English by myself.
Anyways we also set more details to the book club. And stuff :D
Haha I remember hoping for Asians that night, well next to us was this large mass of Asians yeah. It was someone's birthday and no one was singing =| So we asked one of the guy's mates if we could sing and he said yes. Haha you know how sometimes there are people who don't realise when a conversation ends? Well dude, that Asian guy maybe he had his sights on Amy or something but despite the end of the conversation, every so often he'd turn around and smile at us (or just Amy ) . HAHA
Finally they started to sing despite the cake laying there for like 10 minutes before that. I didn't know the words so when it came I sang "HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR ..ASIAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU" Haha apparently some others were fortunate enough to have the Asian mate whisper to them the guy's name. Oh wells :)
Dessert was good, hot chocolate :9 Haha lol at the waiter being affronted when Dunja asked if he had tea "AHPF, like yeah"
Haha Nab's pop was kind enough to drive me back afterwards :)
I remember feeling conscious of my cleavage the entire night LOL.
That was a nice catch up :)
LOVELOVELOVED
Haha I figured if I was going to commit myself to regular blogging I might as well do the Bondi trip with the girls while I was there.
Haha so we were supposed to meet up at 9:30. In preparation I made myself aware that my train was at 9:14. Yeah okay so I woke up at 9 :P That's okay I still managed to make it for the train ( Y ) I think it's so cool that despite not settling a place for us to meet up, we all are so accustomed to meeting around Priceline and so that we end up there anyways.
This time around there were I think ten of us? Me, Amy, Ray, Jas, Tan, Sheila (new addition), Tan's Jas, Jas' Freeman and later on Wes who we met at the beach.
The train ride as expected, consisted of some photos
Nothing really worth mentioning. Haha we caught a stretchy bus from Bondi Station to the beach :) I like stretchy buses.
So we got there and already it was hot. We made a short trip to the McDonalds for one reason or antoher.
Finally the beach! :) It was hot I tells you that. Whilst walking I kept my eyes peeled for Asians, like I always do. There were but we sitting in all the wrong spots :(
The water was cooold. However after you get over the body-temperature dropping water, you start enjoying the sting in your eyes, that blazing feeling in your throat from the salt water. Haha if anything pushes Amy around it's the waves, we were like ragdolls compared to the playful nudges of the ocean :) OH LOLMFG. I remember surfacing and making eye contact with this Asian guy LOL At the same time I had inhaled sea water and I made this cringe of disgust so now I'm afraid the guy may have misconstrued my actions. Oh well :) Not my fault he didn't try to clarify my intentions. (A)
Haha Amy & I got tired. Well I was more tired since I was the only one who got past the first two round of waves :P
We sat back down and erected our umbrellas along with Tania as a lighthouse beacon for other Asians to spot us :)
Meanwhile Jasper + Freeman left to buy some fish & chups. TY to them because they were tasty despite being, as expected, a total ripoff.
A little while later Kenny, Jas + Shazza went off to buy lunch, well correction our lunch since I delegated the ever critical of my hungry well-being to Sheila to take care of :)
They took a while, so Amy & I went for one more dip, we later found out this painful delay was because they decided to eat before bringing us our life support. Gawsh :P
We went back for one last swim and that t'was it.
I remember later we were confronted as to discerning who were the locals and who weren't. Well here's a way, I highly doubt that the locals would eat Maccas on the beach :D
Haha we left to change and what not. We then asked a local (we knew he was local becuase he was working a local juice shop called Sejuiced LOL) about the location of Pompei, haha. This Pompei was not the site of the epic eruption of Vesuvius but home of the alleged best gelatto in Sydney :)
So we went, and indeed the gelatto was damned good. Lol it better had been we payed $4.50 for a scoop & cone, except Sheila & Ray who payed 3.10 each for a double scoop :P Then again, I love all icecream so really my opinion in this is void.
The day basically ends around there :) Sorry for the scanty details.
I am a blogging fiend, I give the impression of constancy . But look! How long has it been since the formal and still where is that entry? Nowhere to be seen, well suffer no longer my blog-thirsty friends, your magniloquent fairy is back from what may be an expired period of indolence!
I started the formal entry rest-assured, I just couldn't commit to finish it haha. Well here goes my precious darlings!
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What a day, I must say. Let us pray we will never forget the memories we had lay.
LOL STFU.
So 25th of November, not just the gorgeous Gaspard Ulliel's birthday but also Macarthur Girls' big day. Noice.
The day started at around 8am for me because I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep. That was followed by Maple and watery eyes with the affliction of an eye infection. Yes during formal, lovely.
Rayanne called me to make sure I was awake.
I met Zhang & Kenny at the station and off we went to the hairdressers. Haha the place hadn't changed much since I last went in the early years of high school :D Haha the lady who cut my hair then was still there but she looked alot younger with her new 'do. Ah the perks of hairdressing. Anyways after I was done I had to run off to Parramatta Library to pick up Amy's formal ticket from her mum. Haha and I literally did run because I was eager to tone down the curls on my head. Rather massive they were. After that I ran back to the hairdressers where Amy & Kenny were still curling. Oh well in Kenny's case, she was straightening. Whilst waiting I was watching this Chinese drama on the tv and it was about the diamonds business lol. It was okay but there was jsut this one chick I couldn't stand because she was so bland and 2-dimensional. She was just nice. Maybe I have a secret abhorrence for all round nice chicks but ocme to think of it I know that's not true because I like Tijana and Tamkin and Amina :)
We met up with Helen who had to wait for us for about half an hour , thanks to Kenny's ironing lmao. Amy, Kenny & I had to wait outside for a while whilst Len checked in. But when we got in it was all worth it, the room was uberly cool. I later found out that the room being 'cool' doubled two meanings, one it was awesome and two it was absofrickinglutely freezing. We got there around 3 so we had some time to kill (with a flamethrower) so we took some photos. As always lol. Haha, you can check out my convertible fringe. It serves as both a front fringe and a side fringe, how convenient.
I remember we were waiting for a hotel employee to clean out the mini-fridge and I was hoping it was some sexy Asian pool cabana boy ah but to my dismay it was a mid 40s man instead. Well one's disappointment can only be made up with our delightful surprises in the future! :)
So around five we started getting ready, haha I recall me and Amy counting down the minutes out of pure boredom. Pure and pristine boredom. I had bought one of those silicone bras but dissatisfied I had actually succumbed to such a fate I was determined to not completely concede to the evils of silicone and I bought the kind where it was half cotton & silicone. Okay lol it does sound disgusting.
After getting putting on my dress, I sauntered out looking for what little make up I could put on with the importunate event of an eye infection on the day of the formal. I found some eyeshadow which I permitted myself to wear because the infection was on the inner bottom lid so haha ! :) I also put on someone's lipgloss.
So off we went in our heels and pretty dresses. Some of the girls had put on cardigans to brave the cold that met us outside. Haha we were only to discover it wasn't so cold to make that necessary. Oh in the elevator we saw some older women, who were young but older, also in pretty dresses. I jokingly remarked aloud that they might be going to the formal too. This led to them having some sort of reminiscent conversation about their formals back in the day. Haha will we be doing the same if the same situation happened to us? :)
I said I practised in my heels. HAHA, yeah well that didn't preclude the inevitable pain. I hadn't even made my entire way there and was begging for us to return to our cavemen roots of barefeeted transportation.
We arrived and we realised we weren't alone. There were other schools but unfortunately it was only Year 10 children. Sighs :) Haha soon girls started arriving and many photos ensued.
We finally began to make our way up to the Star Room, my gosh was it cluttered. There was only one elevator I think and all 200 girls were expected to make their way up.
To my dismay we had indeed travelled up a little too late, all the pretty tables by the panoramic windows had already been bagged by more astute girls. Oh well, they may occupy those tables but nothing could prevent me from using that view in a photo LOL.
Tehe. The night proceeded like any perfect formal night should. Haha first was entrees, that I can't recall for the life of me. Haha woops? :) Dinner was okay, the potato was okay. Rayanne made me eat the vegetables :( Haha and the meat, my lord! I was so close to being reconverted to my vegetarian ways. I would poke at the meat with my fork and it spouted blood, it was also in a little blood bath. So forgive me for not honouring my carnivorous tendencies as much as I should've that night.
What else that night? Dancing, so much dancing. Bullocks rules about not taking off our heels. Haha it was fun. I remember really loving the moment when we were all synchronised in our dance moves I mean sure it was dirty and sexually explicit to the song 'Get Low' but come on, unity is unity. No one's complaining ;D
Photos, there were many many photos. I'm going to post up a few for your sake, because I know you will cry if I don't. Haha! I don't know if it's the music I'm listening to but I'm feeling a bit airheaded and egotistic :P
The night ends, it was bittersweet but every night ends. Haha the group left the building and it was slightly sprinkling with rain. It was a bit ironic, inside the Star Room it was beyond reality but outside we were met with what could only be described as the sombre future that awaited us. Yeah wow Ed, why don't you sell that paragraph of bull.
I like this font I'm typing in right now, on notepad, it's cool and very conducive to my black & white imagination.
Finally I felt a drop of water on my head, and I knew it was time to go. Who would want to ruin our pretty dresses? So with most of us barefoot except Jackie who's stoicism meant she stormed back in her heels (bless her), we walked back. Haha how typical of party animals must we had looked to an outsider. A bunch of young partying hooligans who forgot where their homes were.
We got home and boy were we tired. Tired but alert. So alert that we made our way down to the convenience store for some food supplies. Not for me personally, I went down because I forgot my toiletries :9
Haha finally we resigned to 'sleep'. I comma'd that because one, we couldn't sleep. I remember feelign really emptyheaded and physically awkward. We talked about nothing until 5am and around that time, Tania comes in feeling really sick. She wanted to sleep on the floor, I THINK NOT! Haha so we made room for her, but there's only so much lesbian proximity even EYE could take. So me being hte altruist offered to take the floor with nothign but a pillow and a bedsheet. Yes Ed you are Jesus-reincarnated. No not really.
Yeah so sleeping on the floor? It was a bit like a coffin since i slept between the bed and the wall haha. It was however ironically alot more spacious. From whta I heard Amy adopted some bed guerilla tactics, hitting Jackie so as to prevent her from sleeping LOL. Poor baby :)
I woke up feeling alot like an atomic bomb, like shit. Haha we were supposed to take capitals that day but it was an understatement to say we didn't look the part. Haha Jackie didn't have anywhere to go so I offered her to come with me to my place for some sexy time. HAHA no sexy time I promise but yeah so she came :)
We got sleepy and slept and I eventually proposed a sleepover! haha it wasn't uch of a sleepover since hte entire night consisted of uploading formal photos & facebooking ;)
Haha. That was the day, the next day I walked Jackie to the station for what, I don't remember :)
I really enjoyed the formal I think. Everyone says it was fun but nothign comes to mind when I think about it. I suppose that's good 'cos I generally have some rather cynical thoughts. I'm glad that the night was how it turned out, absolutely awesome.
LOVELOVELOVED
When it comes to discomfort or anything evenly remotely related to awkward, no one can outshine yours truly.
Case Study 1:
Tricia: "I leaned in for a kiss but you leaned in for a hug"
I didn't have the heart to tell Tricia that the possibility of me swinging that way won't be until uni days.
Case Study 2:
D: Edwina we don't talk much
Edwina: Yeah I know
Case Study 3:
-Edwina is in a daze-
D: Hey Edwina
-Edwina looks-
D: How's Ben?
Edwina: Uh. Good.
-Edwina looks away for something else to occupy attention-
Haha but at this point, I think I'm victimising little D. It's not my fault he still wears black wifebeaters, gangster stops being trendy around Year 10. That's like 2 years ago. And yeah, discriminating against people based on their clothing by assuming a stereotype is AOK because I'm sleepy and it's 0225 in the morning.
Lovelovelove Edwina.
Okay so things to blog about. I should honestly make a list, I forget and in doing so I lower the quality of my blogs. However in saying that, you would need at least a morsel of calibre in one's blogs to get away with saying that. So scratch scratch that.
Let's blog about THE picnic. Haha, it wasn't as ideal as the paintings I see but come on could we really make a fair comparison with the modest dresses and parasols of that epoch? Nope, but we certainly are better looking. Yeah I have no grounds to make that statement, I know but who cares?
HUZZAH - Rex uses this word but I'm only adopting it because the adorable masculine embodiment of VIVIENNE (for MANY who can't spell it right), Hamish of the lovable Hamish and Andy duo, used it. Haha that so wasn't a display of my verbosity. Anywho, I realised that it will be harder for me and Vee because as women we will attract unsolicited and uncalled for catty female remarks. Then again, it's a form of disguised worship so bring it.
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OK! The picnic, ha :)
Well I woke up and the weather didn't look all too bad I remember, on my side of the house the sky was actually blue. I was later to find out when I left the house that it would be cloudier than a test tube filled with limewater and attached to a rapidly occuring fermentation experiment.
Yeah and now the count of people who are reading this blog dropped down from 0 to minus bajillion.
I caught my train. And I remember getting there on time but not catching sight of anyone. I started thinking this was some badly played out prank called "Make Edwina stay at the station for six hours waiting for her friends" but I later saw the radiant Jasmine.
Hadiha, the wait wasn't as unbearable after that partly because everyone started coming at that point and also because I was enjoying the delectable company of Jasmine.
Oh I remember that before actually waiting waiting I went to IGA to purchase something for the picnic. The idea of a picnic was formulated the night before in advent of the impending doom and gloom weather so none of us had time to prepare anything. So thinking I was insanely intelligent I bought drinks and cups with the assumption that nobody else brought drinks. Well not only did someone buy a drink but none of us bought any decent junk food. Jasmine was in charge of plates, cutlery and the whatnot. Whilst Tania being Tania provided us with roast chicken, I know LOL. Jackie bought potato salad - resurrects a sound resembling the gargle of Homer contemplating a donut- BTW I'm thinking the people at IGA have some sort of secluded vendetta against me. When I paid for my drinks he puts them in a bag and wait for him to hand it to me. However in lieu of that he goes on and serves the next guy and I'm like.. wtf? :O So I figure maybe the girl next to me will do it but she doesn't even notice that the Asian girl who paid was still standing there. Finally the guy who was after me and was just served leaves and the guy who served me looks at me and gives me an exasperated look and pulls it off the rack to hand to me. Haha :)
So it was up to Kenny and Sheila to sufficiently ruin our bodies with junk we shouldn't be eating. We ended up having two packets of the same corn chips and also Burger Rings. Come to think of it, I didn't eat any Burger Rings . Nice.
Okay the night before Jasmine placed our money for means of transport on The Loop and thankfully it did stop at Parra Park. Haha so we boarded an -
(BTW I TYPED A SHITLOAD MORE BUT IT DISAPPEARED)
empty Loop. Haha Kenny appropriately dubbed it the "Millennium Bus", it was pretty intelligent because it knew the stops we were stopping at. Haha, it's not that hard though actually considering it went in a Loop.
We got off somewhere but before we made it to the park we had to stop by at 3 Mobile Dealers so Tania could retrieve her broken down phone. It was so cool : D It's just like ANZ Bank but better. You use a touch screen to select you were after at the store and then you're given a number and you're allowed to sit and wait. OR you could go use the computers and Youtube or check your email or play XBOX. Oh man I played and I got pwn'd by chocolate rabbits. That's nice. And also behind the service people was this glass separated room which looked like a lab with people in labcoats working on phones, very cool. I think we all walked out wanting to become a - haha no just Kenny.
It wasn't long before we made it to the park. We were planning on sitting on the benches but then I vocalised my objections because I realised that then Jasmine and I may have dragged our picnic rugs for no apparent reason. So instead we settled for a shady spot by a tree.
Haha before we got to the nitty gritty, we attended to the all-important slipslopslap. The importance of all this I think was contributed by those new creepy ads that are worse than slasher flicks. The doctor cut open the woman on tv! My face was like (@o@)
We set everything up, food in centre, kids nicely distributed. Haha initially I had to get someone to cut my chicken for me because I am absolutely hopeless but in the end I got a little something something myself. I remember saying that the corn chips the girls bought were the best I had ever tasted. There were a bajillion flies lol . Btw this was all at 10-11 in the day, so much for lunch LOL.
After that followed a looong series of photos haha, it was partly driven by these school girls who decided to jig and invade our privacy to meet up with their boyfriends/cousins. Maybe both. There were alot of photos very well inspired and creative, but I'm going to choose the ones I look best in. Naturally. Actually I look pretty shifty in all of these, so never mind my comment about being selective.
Haha there was this guy on a lawnmower, and I kid you not. He just kept coming closer and closer. I suspect he just did that so we would eventually concede and give him whoever's number he wanted so he'd go away.
There were these old men, not old per se but 40+ old who all came to play soccer. Oh my, one of the ditzes from group of school girls asked if she could play and she was wearing ballet flats. Well done for choice of footwear (Y) Rayanne was too chicken to go up and show the men how girls were supposed to play. Now they're forever imprinted (not Twilight style) with the stereotypes of girls make shonky soccer players.
Haha they're so odd, the soccer players, after a while there was a 'water' break. Men would drink their water or start tipping water all over themselves. Unless that was a gay soccer team, I don't think anyone found it very arousing. This guy uesd the drinking fountain but he didn't bother turning it off after using it, like wtf? So I decided to do the right thing and stomp my way over their to exploit his shortcomings and close the tap for him. Haha I'm not sure if anyone noticed, but I'm glad Jackie took this politics-esque photo of me after I did it. I look v. satisfied LOL
Throughout the entire day, when Rayanne had swallowed sufficient flies for us to give her a new name and classify her as an amphibian she began badgering everyone to leave and to just sit on The Loop all day. No one wanted their picnic to end early so everytime she suggested it, I put forth the solution she should just catch it herself for the rest of the day and stay on until we met her on the bus eventually. Lawl.
Okay after all the photos, all the food, the little cloud gazing. We did leave (Y) Yaya. This time The Loop which came every ten minutes was pretty full. Sheila and Ray were scolded by the bus driver for using the back entrance when they only got off to let others get off. Haha, silly misguided bus drivers.
We got to Westfields and everyone was immediately fixated by those pretty Cupcakes on Pitt Street. They're okay, I'm not that orgasmic about them. Rayanne had to leave soon after. Haha we realised that despite her imploring to make another Youtube video she ws once again absent so we took the opportunity to flaunt that little wound Rayanne left us and we made another one : D Yes! More hot chicks to feature on Ed's Youtub.
I started a countdown during the trip. First there were six: Edwina, Jackie, Jasmine, Kenny, Sheila and Tania. It turned out to be a really nice close-knit group :) And then there were five i.e. minus Rayanne. After some shopping Tania had to disappear after beingpursued all day by people who loved her by phone. I wish I was that loved or sociable T.T Haha after some more shopping Jasmine strayed from the litter which = three. Jackie eventually caught a bus someplace leaving me and Shazza to catch the 711.
Well HAHA, Sheila had to get off the bus, leaving me. The champion loner :) Yes I don't know there's something very oxymoronic about that.
I got home very excited for photos around 6pm but I didn't get them until approximately 10:30, that meant I was all jumpy for photos for around 4.5 hours. Noice.
Btw I know I said I went with my friends but I actually went with my parents. Well okay my guardian, Jackie :D Check out her supervising me on the children's play ride. I had quite a bit of trouble getting out of the thing later mind you.
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Today I went handing out resumes. That was almost a scary experience. I remember getting exceedingly excited when Boost first accepted my resume. Whilst walking to Dymmocks to apply I see Rayanne after giving a good ole hug I tell her to wait just a sec so I could give Dymmocks my resume. The Dymmocksians asked if I was friends with the girl who just handed out resumes and I wasn't sure who they were talking about and I told them that I had come out by myself. Eventually I went back outside and discovered it was actually Rayanne LOL. According to Kenny they turned back and saw us, lol that's not going to send the wrong impression. Oh god, I am praying they'll forget it even happened -
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How cool are books? Here we go. LOL! No I just wanted to say that books have this uncanny ability to sometimes pull strings of your thoughts and set it on paper and it suddenly solidifies as a result of that book. I mean otherwise it's all just abstract ideas you don't seriously think about or acknowledge.
Yeah I'll need to reread that in the future too : D
Okay tired, my right eye is swollen and my left eye is itchy. Sweet -
Lovelovelove Edwina.
Sometimes you talk yourself into a mood. Sometimes you deem inconvenient things necessary.
I think I'm in this self-diminishing rut at the moment. I'm okay though, I know I'll get over it soon enough. I always do.
I'm hoping this one will end soon. I don't want to miss the beach, honestly.
There's just things that build up and make me spit fire. I'm just a very spoilt female, I indulge in selfish reasons and whatnot.
Jasmine, I hope you sometimes read this.
I'm sorry if I don't show up at the beach, it's more a pride thing. I wouldn't miss it for something trite like fear of skin cancer. Friends are worth the odd spotting of the skin. I'm trying to establish something but I know not showing up won't achieve it. So I will make an effort to overcome my petty thoughts.
Kylie.
I'm sorry I can't empathise with you.
Amy.
I still hate you at this point in time. I know it's nothing too deep, but I know it's not just because you won't admin me.
What a juxtaposition a BFFL post and a tres melancholy one.
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I've been feeling really stagnant lately. This sense of non-commitment just overwhelms me and I find it hard to even consider going out to places. Maybe it's the abundance of time, maybe it's the rut but it's definitely yuck. I spent five minutes today in the lounge staring at the wall unit.
Did I expect something to happen?
It's exacerbated by Tropic of Cancer, it's a hard book and my enthusiasm isn't impervious to the toils of reading convoluted stuff like this.
Either I'm inherently lazy and after the HSC it's just come back to me or I don't know.
I think I just wished more people would notice I'm not feeling peachy. I'm pretty attention seeking and needy like that.
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My legs look almost decent in heels. -Arrogant laugh.
Lovelovelove, Edwina.
Haha warning penises, sentimental blog right up.
Today Amy and I went to school to sign out. Subsequently we went shopping for formal shoes. Okay well I had no intention of buying formal shoes, only Havaianas for the up and coming beach day (Y) (Y)
I'm so excite
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Haha I didn't blog to enlighten you on my shopping escapades, there are already many blogs like that out there and I just can't compete. I'm blogging to brag about how I have some of the best friends in the world. I've been seeing them during the holidays, consecutive days. So it's really a dream almost come true. Haha
Yesterday, I saw Kathleen and like our young selves we Wii'd and entertained ourselves in the oddest of ways which are oddly reminiscent of our younger childhoods. Except now instead of DDR'ing on the PS, we do it on a Wii. Haha at DDR's defection to Wii. Join the winning side, the dark side :) Haha I love how this friendship is one of those things that defy time and despite time's altering effects (unload Gwen Harwood essay) we're still chummy like bosom buddies. It's wondeful and I love knowing we're always going to be best of friends despite the seldom visits and the (little) distance in everything between us. Lovelove to you K.
I haven't seen the other BFFL though but honestly why should I be surprised?
So it was almost a BFFL marathon.
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Amy and I went to look at pets. Haha when looking at the puppies , there was this overwhelming canine smell that only I could smell. I have an acute sense of smell - beams.
If I lived with a boyfriend, I want him to buy a puppy. Please.
Today for the first time I saw my orthodontist genuinely smile. It was so lovely and I mean that in a non-worrying way. People don't smile enough, like Nimita. If everyone smiled, I'm so sure life would be so much more wonderful. I don't mean the creepy smile where the ends of your lips are stapled to your ears, haha just a smile.
I had the strangest thought today. Endangered species, we're forcefully breeding them in trying to sustain them. What if that happened to humans? I mean that might not necessarily happen but maybe certain cultures? I mean would we step in a deliberately force them to mate, even if it would be against the initial wishes? What makes it okay to do it to pandas and Tasmanian devils. Sure it's saving a species but we're incarcerating two living beings and hoping that fate knows what to do. Can we expect to do the same for humans?
It's funny I remember having KAKAK, the holy pentagon of bestfriends. Now there's only.. two/three.
I had a Frozen Coke today from McDonalds by Sadia's recommendation, they're quite good but the important thing is not to let go of the taste. I do that to alot of my food and suddenly it's not a matter of enjoying my food but eating it. Taste is suddenly removed from the equation and replaced with efficiency of consumption.
Oh man I got honked at today. I looked up and these two guys hi-fived each other. Ugh.
I watched A Very Long Engagement today, it has so much hope (HAHA Nabs) it's wonderful. Gaspard Ulliel is also wonderful. The entire film is lovely.
I must continue reading Tropic of Cancer or I'll never finish it. It truly does need commitment, that book.
Haha, I'm still worried about the HSC. I shouldn't, I don't look as happy as last year's Year 12rs but I'm also more lazy than last year's Year 12s.
Lovelovelove, Edwina.
